a long long time ago

so handsome sia :D

ian yang and me

cheese!

min yang and me

tims looks smarstic

like.. really sparstic...

precious memories :)

Only Hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that
I am At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

hmmmmm, hmmmmm, oooooh.


Dedicated to the one and only

Disintegrated

6 more papers to go! how time really flies. science is now all the past. 31/40 for bio mcq, 27/40 for chem mcq :( there flies my A! -sob sob- i could do better! darn it, all cos i forgot to drink my brand's essence of chicken today!

Afternoon papers give me a headache somehow... cos my entire daily routine is now lopsided. but i get to wake up later! :P which means i sleep later too... somehow. but each day is always fun and interesting to destress me and make me forget all the stress, for awhile. there was a joker today who didn't shade the OAS sheet for physics mcq... so stupid! and another fella who arrived late for the chem paper and made everyone wait! hmph, oh wells.. and the usual -people caught talking and made to stand up, handphone alarms ringing off. today's one was the MRT 'doors closing' ringtone..

Afternoon papers make me hungry too! very hungry. i need to snack more. really alot more. i saw Mrs Loh's adopted baby daughter today at serene centre where she was coaching amaths.. SO CUTE! big round eyes staring at you.. >_<

Amath Amath Amath.. groans, i need to cover integration.. sigh. stupid chapter. stupid person who invented integration.

Arunan's Birthday! must give him an umbrella that says "I'm not an Umbrella!" :D and let him sing in the rain.. lalalaaa

I'm gonna be so bored after Prelims, theres just some things i want to do..

I love chocolate

I feel i'm so random today. so much for integration, my brain must have been disintegrated. hmmz

I Won't Last A Day Without You

Day after day I must face a world of strangers
Where I don't belong, I'm not that strong
It's nice to know that there's someone I can turn to
Who will always care, you're always there

When there's no getting over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you

So many times when the city seems to be without a friendly face
A lonely place
It's nice to know that you'll be there if I need you
And you'll always smile, it's all worthwhile

When there's no getting over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you

Touch me and I end up singing
Troubles seem to up and disappear
You touch me with the love you're bringing
I can't really lose when you're near

If all my friends have forgotten half their promises
They're not unkind, just hard to find
One look at you and I know that I could learn to live
Without the rest, I found the best

When there's no getting over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you

When there's no getting over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you

shhh

i must do well for my other subjects now! i must get a 1 for bio. MUST! i'm so obscessed with that. i've studied so hard for it. i must get a 1. i will get a 1 cos i wanna be a doctor. i've wasted almost 6 good hours sleeping away cos i didnt have the mood. omg, whats wrong with me! i don't care, i'll shut myself out and intensive bio tonight all the way. if theres anything that i can get a 1, its bio. because bio is my everything now.

chanting chanting bio bio...

no music, no computer for 2 whole hours... i'll not sleep if i touch these. i dun even know why i'm on the computer now... i should be studying without it during prelims.. urgh, stupid stupid stupid.

the question

i've just talked to my form teacher on advice on whether i should re take chinese. i really dunno what i want. i hate these kinda decisions where i'm trapped inbetween so many things. it makes me feel so indecisive. and the stupid dateline is tomorrow! i mean, i dun wanna take chinese anymore. it seemed like a century ago since i last wrote a chinese word. but now i got a 6! my parents say no harm in retaking as its very safe if i can do better. i'm pressured on both sides now. its true theres incentives to retake. but its battling inside me whether i should or not. half says yes, the other says no. i need to talk to my chinese teacher tommorow. i've let my chinese teachers down.. really.

the number 6

getting my lazy butt off my bed to type this, finally i've regained some strenght to do some work...

2 killer papers down, hist ss and chem. all which i actually did really mug hard for. i wanna get a 2 from each of them. after all, i need to show some improvement yea? and i'll really need that great encouragement after getting a 6 for chinese. 6!! woohooo, i passed!!! and its sure a sign that i'll get 6 pts for O's too :D. i'm just in a dilemna on whether to retake it or not. sure theres no harm in retaking, but i dunno...

somehow i dun feel the mood to do work.. all hte subs that i'm prepared for are passing by... the nightmare comes when physics, amaths, lit and emaths come... cos i've not even started on them! but i hope to do better for eng too.

i'm hungry

Happy Birthday

Holiday!

such a wonderful break before prelims, to sleep sleep and do whatever i want! and i lost my mood for studying for that.. oh wells, prelims in 4 days! counting down. i'm not abit worried, as for mids.. but this time i know i did study, well abit more then mids anyway.. haha

National Day celebrations in school were nothing much but waving the singapore flag and act like patriotic citizens, well, i had plenty of fun.. playing and releasing those helium filled ballons tied to the stand next to me. i felt like a child again, having so much fun being fasinated by flying balloons. it was quite a funny sight, seeing ballons flying up half way through the parade. the work and art of my mischievouness :D i spent the other half of my time eating the snacks i smuggled into the stadium..

then i felt like i wanted to waste some time, so i went over to visit estelle at her grandparent's house for a short while just for the company and to chit chat abit.. seriously, i need to talk to people more, or else i'll die crazy from being stuck at home mugging for prelims.

anyways, i'm eating, i'm sleeping, i'm listening to music, i'm watching movies.. theres troy tonight! and i'm trying my best to do some work too.. sigh, bet everyone else is mugging back home so hard but i'm just so relac
i figured i couldnt do history anymore so i left it one side to let my brain rest.. and i'm doing abit of chem just to keep everything in my head.. just revision of organic chem and i think i should be prepared at least with foundation knowledge.

whee, holiday holiday holiday

i love the song Only Hope by mandy moore.. its sounds so sweet, and she is kinda pretty, with the right type of hairstyle. and i wanna learn it on the piano. i will after my prelims at least.. and i'll add it to my personal list of songs, The Phantom Of The Opera, Just The Way You Are, Magic Waltz, Love Story... and this will be my fifth, perhaps can u feel the love tonight after that.

i love music!

mug

successful or not?

i've covered work exponentially over the weekend
dunno how many chapters of bio,
1 hist source based
2 structured essays
1 chapter physics
organic chem for chem

is that good or not eh.. now that prelims are around the corner, i'm at maximum capacity, but dosent seem enough, i just realised focusing too much on bio and hist made me forget all the things i studied for chem earlier!! and i havent touched amath for almost 2 weeks alr!! omg, i'm so dead. lit is as clean as a sheet of paper. maybe i'm not working hard enough! :O

mug mug mug...

think

sigh, maybe its really cos i'm sick i'm posting so much crap


i dun even know what i'm thinking, or why i'm thinking.
my dad asked me not to think

i need to forget everything!
i need to concentrate on prelims.

i need to sleep.

12 more days

12 more days!!!

omg, so fast. how much time has flew by me.. its impossible. my life never felt this short before. the countdown begins for prelims, and i've started studying. but not good enough, i'm not studying fast enough.. i'm still in the wee chapters of the sciences only! i havent even started humanities and math! i must work doubly hard now, "study day and night" quotes Mr. Ng. if i have time to sleep, i have time to study! this pace is just gonna blow me off my feet, i just hope i survive the ordeal without going crazy.

but to slow things down abit for now, relax and chill out yea? haha, i shouldnt be stressing myself all the time. hmm, come to think of it, somehow today didnt seem very good. there was nothing wrong or bad that happened, it just didnt feel good. maybe its just one of those things about my head and imagination again but it just dosent feel right. it has felt like a bad day, a really really terrible day. but come to think of it, i have no idea why i would think so.

i went with a group of drama boys to visit ms cheng today at holland v starbucks. she was late, as usual.. but it was a time of catching up.

i suddenly had an interest in those documentaries shown on arts central every wed night, and that was how half my night was spent anyway, watching the life of ants and bees which i think i thought was boring a few months ago. maybe i'm really turning crazy? no, but its really cool to see how these ants and bees live and survive. so amazing these small creatures seem smarter then me! but i guess not everyone would agree with me, or get fascinated over these things.. maybe i'm really just wierd.. haha.

ok, back to finish chem and bio before i sleep now. funny how i'm just so interested to do chem and bio now, i really find that i cant do math anymore.. .. and that really isnt good news.